::Skool Carnival::
listen up ppl. my skool's having a funfair on 8th april. its at my skool... duh... anw, 4 dose hu don't noe, its crescent girls skool. its 4 de whole dae. plz cum... i reali miss u guys & i wanna see all of u guys ag(x ij gals)... if u nid the funfair tickets plz inform mi asap kayz... reali, plz plzplzplz cum... dere'll be neoprint machines dere... plz cum... i wanna spend tym with all u girls ag...

::So Tired::
haish... im so tired of tears... & im done with cryin... it just makes no difference with me cryin.
sometimes i wish i cud h8 u... den i wudnt be hurtin so much... but... i don noe y ur actin so cold to mi... & mayb i dun wanna noe either.
i reali dun noe now... im reali confused... i wish u were here to console mi...
yet mayb it is reali time to let go... if strugglin to hold on is gonna hurt mi more then lettin go & movin on... i... i'll let go...

::Ermz::
2dae i dieded. our pe teacher made us run 2.4. shucks. ran so slow lars. was in no mood to run... 15.43 mins(some ppl better believe mi. not crap abt how dey can run "fast". urgh...)... tupid, ran so slow... i was lyk jog de 1st rnd arnd de canel den got stitch... den started walkin 4 a while. de last part was lyk sprintin. so cool... hahax... ran past cjm. den she was lyk "wo sheng ni de qi ah." lolx... de sec 4's & de other teacher was lyk starin at mi lyk i was some kinda freak. lolx... nex week napfa liao. gonna die ag... bleahs...
durin sci lesson, mi & jou teng v wu liao. so write letter to each other. (we were sittin bside one another. lolx...) den regina sae she oso wanna write... laura wanted to write oso aft she saw da 3 of us writn. so de 4 of us, hu were sittin all nex to each other, were writn to each other.
went strait to d&t lesson aft tt. me, jou teng & regina wee stil writn letters. but in d&t claz i sit opposite the both of them. so we were lyk throwin letters across the room whenever mr ho turned arnd. hahax... was v funni... & i hit qiao chu's head once... whoops... hehx... sry qiao chu!
aft tt was chi... so borin, i shall not sae much abt it... juz tt i sat bside jou teng & we wernt listenin to a word the teacher was sayin. nautty nautty... lolx...
ate lunch in skool den took bus back wit cjm. met kesha on de bus... din sae anyth to her. i din oe how to. hahax...
anw, i gtg study my physics liao. see, so guai... lolx...

::Haish::
stop it... plz... both of u stop quarrelin... haish... ok, so its my fault, reali, not hers... u gotta believe mi... plz... plz, h8 mi if u want, its not her fault. i noe both of u r juz tryin to help, & its my fault tt i took it da wrong way. im reali reali sry...
haish...
i reali wish it cud stop. juz all stop...
im sry to the both of u. im reali reali sry... i wud do anyth 4 the both of u to stop fightin...
& im sry to dis one v close fwen i used to have... i reali dun noe wat ive done wrong... wud u tel mi y ur shunnin mi? plz... i reali miss da u i used to noe...
i used to have dis v special fwen... hu was always by my side... but now she's lost in a shadow of a stranger i know not of anymore... wud u help mi find her?
haish...
i nid to get my mind off stuff...
todae's tuition was reali fun. dis guy brought his tablet to de tuition centre. showoff. -glares- ptf... anw, i got all da girls into dis "song". reali funi. & i was lyk malu, malu malu malu... malu... malu... i tink i got on jessica's nerves. whoops... yeah, & all de girls were lyk tryin to get da boys to sa jiao. hax... we did dis summary thgy where we had to reduce the num of words in the given sentence. we were challengin ms chan hu cud get da least amount of words. o yeah, & de whole lesson we were lyk askin ms chan if she was a ninja. cuz she was wearin completly black wit no designs watsoever. reali looked lyk a ninja...

::Tears::
how cud u do dis to mi? i nv thot tt u wud ever do such a th to mi... u dun noe how much im cryin now... u wont even listen to my troubles... how can u 4get mi juz cuz u have new fwenz? why r u so cold towards mi? wat have i done wrong? y izit tt things muz end up dis way?
mayb our fwenship wasnt as wonderful as i thot it was... mayb i was juz fantasizin in my own world... but i thot...
haish...

::Im Postin Ag::
haish... i v sad 2dae... well, im sad most of da tym, so it makes no diff...
dis morn... i cried in claz... no one noticed... see, so pro...(erm...) cuz dis grp of ppl were talkin abt sth v personal & it reminded mi of some1 i used to noe... haiz...
on tue... we got back our sci test.... haiz... im flunkin sci... its not xactly flunkin... but i juz managed to pass... i stil dun getit y i was wrong... ming ming shi dui de ma... our sci teachr din reali explain much... i wanted to ask qns she oso dun allow... haiz...
wed... nth much happened in skool... just tt i saw madelene(did i spel her name correctly?) at de bustop... wanted to wave hi but she din see mi. she looks weird in her skool u...
thurs... which is 2dae... lets see... okay, so i was reali moody 4 mos parts of de dae... & im sry if it affected any1... pbl totally sucked... every pbl sessions suck... dance prac 2dae was v weird... we had to do 40 crunches at de end of prac cuz we were noisy... betta den pushups doh.
tmrw's sportsdae... i dun wanna go... haish...
... da tablet pc... every1 in sec 1 is tokin abt it... da teachers r lyk tellin us tt when we get our tablets, it'll be much easier to teach & learn... my whole claz is lyk sayin dey want da tablet now... i wish some1 cud give it to mi... lyk 4 my early early bdae prez... (yeah rite, hu m i kiddin?) but i reali reali want it... even thou i noe... haish... nvm...
thx 1e 4 listenin to wat i had to sae... i reali appreciate tt...
haish.... i tried to tell her... i reali did... but she gave mi da impression tt she didn want to listen to mi... i reali wanted to tell her... but... i gas im juz scared... tt i'd find out sth i dun wanna noe... i min she's so cold towards mi now... & i dun even noe how to tok to her anymore... haish... i juz wished we were stil as close as b4...

::Hmm::
2dae, instead of studyin (whoops...), i went dwn to plae badminton & basketbal wit my bro & dad! woo! it was reali fun & all cuz i havent played both 4 lyk 1 whole term.
my arms r weak now... lolx...
& becuz i havent played 4 1 whole term, my badminton & basketbal... well... kinda sucked. so my dad was lyk tryin to train my smack. (he was hopin i cud stil smack. hehx...) da 1st few tyms were... stupid. my dad hit da shuttlecock & i was lyk hit da shuttlecock & it got stuck in de net. diaoz... hey, at liz i hit it. hahax. yeah, so i cud stil more or less smack. so my dad was lyk "kil! kil! KILL!!!" practically shoutin. hahax. i admit, i did betta den i expected. lolx...
now i rmb how much i loved badminton. yar, it was so cool playin lyk every week. den go into sec skool i was lyk super busy & all. hahax, rmb how we played in de skool hall? & how mrs ong warmed up 4 de game? lolx...
my basketbal was lyk sucky. i kept hittin da hoop but it din go in. haiz... so my bro was lyk kp tellin mi to shoot higher. hey, some balls went in okay. im not as bad as u tink. lolx...
yeah, i miss playin sports wit my pri skool fwenz. hahax...
juz now my whole family(includin mi) was watcchin... ermz... our childhood videos? i dunno. dose videos which were taken when we were younger. den i realized, life is just tt short. yeah, & all of us changed so much. i have one thing to sae abt my 2nd bro! he was so damn adorable when he was younger & so PRETTY! im serious. he looked lyk a girl & toked lyk a girl. any1 wud have mistaken him 4 a girl. lolx. & i din noe i was so cute when i was younger. lolx. (ppl! stop tinkin abt tt photo on my table!)

::Blahblahblahblahblah::
hiash...
u used to tell mi tt u'd always be dere 4 mi... u used to always manage to make mi smile every single dae... we used to laugh 2gether, cry 2gether... u used to convince mi tt i cud always look on de brite side of life... we used to tell each other everyth... we used to talk over da fone 4 hours...
&... we cried 2gether... on graduation...
but now... its as if we dun even noe each other... its lyk... we wernt even fwenz in de 1st place...
girl, do u even rmb mi? haish...
i havent seen u 4 so long... i havent even heard frm u... i thot u said we'd be fwenz forever... u said i cud always count on u... tt u'd be here 4 mi no matter what...
i find it hard even to send an sms askin how u've bin lately... i used to tell u all my probs... but now... it seems lyk ur always busy... i wish i cud tok to u... i reali do... u don't noe how much im hurtin... haish...

::Sigh::
hmmz... so im not so hyper 2dae... thk God...
haiz... i tink im bein paranoid... but i dun care... cuz dis i how i feel... & i dun care if u have whatever critisism or any valgularities u r gonna shout at me. but plz, if u r gonna do tt, do it to my face. id rather u tel it straight to my face den tok behind my back.
so b4 u read on, or even b4 i go on typin... plz dun jump to any conclusions tt im tokin abt u kays...
ok fine, 1st of all, ive been seriously convinced by my ******* & a former teacher tt, 1, i cannot sing, 2, i m not pwetty, 3, tt i suck. w8, so tt is ALL true. but come on, u dun have to go on & on abt it rite? RITE?! ogosh...
& den dere r juz some ppl hu can find nth more amusing den getting on my nerves! argh! 4 cryin out loud, dun u have betta things to do?! lyk runnin around in orchard shoutin at de top of ur voice sayin "o da world belongs to mi!".. -_-"... urgh...
sheesh...
ok, im fine... realli im fine... im kpin my cool... -breathe in, breathe out-...

::I'm Hyper::
hmms... yeah, im hyper... & i lurve my wallet! hahax...



gas wat dis is! MY WALLET! lolx...



tts roxy sleepin. aint she cute? aww...

& hapi b'dae stephanie! & a hapi belated one to alison!

::Woo!::
yayx! 2dae was so so so so so much fun! yayx!!! lolx... thk u 1e, yjm & karin 4 makin my dae! u guys rawk! lolx...
i woke up at 8 2dae... so early hor... hahax... den ate breakfast & all & met 1e dwnstairs at 1015... at liz we were supposed to mit at 1015, but 1e was a little late. (dun wori 1e, no hard feelins! hahax...) we walked to de bus stop & dieded 4 tyms! (5 for mi... lolx...) u prob dun noe wat im talkin abt... hahax, but nvm.
we waited 4 176 to come, & i started goin hysterical. i carn rmb y. hahax... 176 eventually came & we boarded de bus. we were... no, no, i was luffin lyk xiao... yeah, mostly was mi hu was luffin... hahax...
de bus stopped at hillview, yjm was boardin de bus. we were lyk goin "jia min!" & wavin to her. hahax.
it was reali funi. we juz kept luffin... w8, i kept luffin, den de 2 of dem see mi luff den oso luff.. hahax... den yjm's senior frm her skool boarded de bus. we were lyk tellin yjm to be friendly & sae hi to her senior. hahax...
so de rez of de bus ride was mostly luffin & wit every1 in de bus lookin at us... hehx...
we alighted de bus at bukit batok mrt station & met karin outside macdonalds. (& yes, i was stil luffin lyk xiao)
we took mrt to somerset. we talked al de way dere. i carn rmb wat we toked abt. hehx...
took neo prints, ate at kfc den watched "the shaggy dog" at cineleisure. da show was quite nice & all. de animals were all so cute! hahax...
den we walked to heeren to go shoppin! yayx.. hahax... & i finally got my wallet! hahax... i luve my wallet! hehx... karin & yjm bought dis super nice bangle. de carrier had dese words on it: "this is a small carrier". hahax. i was lyk"omg, shld i buy tt bangle?". cuz it was reali reali nice. it had stars on it! hahax. reali cool. den in de end i din buy it, but i kept pesterin yjm to give me de carrier cuz i find it reali cute. lolx. yeah, she din give it to me... -_-"... hehx... but it was reali cute. hahax...
1e had to go at 330, cuz she had a claz bbq. so we walked her back to de mrt station... de onli prob was tt none of us cud rmb where de mrt station was. lolx. so we were lyk walkin here, den walkin all da way to de other end. den walkin back ag... den walkin here & dere & here & dere... u get my point... hahax. but we managed to find it in de end, of cuz wit de help of karin's mum (karin called her mum to ask 4 directions. so sweet of auntie to tel us where de mrt station was! hahax.). lol...
aft tt, me, karin & yjm walked all de way back cuz yjm wanted to buy a watch frm a stall we passed by when we were walkin 1e to de mrt station. yjm bought dis reali cool green watch. it looked reali nice.
so we walked somemore aft tt... & we were dyin of thirst. so karin got a drink frm coffee bean but mi & yjm wanted to get slurpee frm 7eleven. so we walked to 7eleven & got de slurpee. but de slurpee wasn readi yet, it was all watery. so we ended up gettin big gulps instead.
dere was dis old guy in frnt of us, & it was reali funni seein wat he did. he filled his cup wit lots & lots of ice den filled it wit coke to de brim. he looked to his rite, den to his left, den drank frm de cup & filled it wit coke til its brim ag. hahax. he did it lyk abt 3 to 5 times. mi & yjm were standin behind him & luffin. hahax.
i carn reali rmb wat happened aft tt, juz tt we walked sumore, yjm bought her dinner, me & karin bought another bottle of drink each, &...
my mum called & asked where i was. i told her at cineleisure & she was all "stil at cineleisure?? wat r u doin? do u noe wat tym it is alr???"
"yeah, 445"
"u r supposed to be hme by 5! not take de mrt back at 5!"
srsly, i didn noe. she told mi i cud stay til 5 da dae b4, i din noe she meant reach hme by 5.
so i was lyk "orh, ok. im leavin... err... soon"
"soon is wat tym??"
"soon.. err... now..."
yeah, so mi, karin & yjm took de mrt hme. my mum brought yjm hme... my mum asked wat i bought & how much i spent. (expected)
lets see, i bought de wallet, watched a movie & took neoprints. no more liao. tt is of cuz excludin food.
she told mi to let her see da wallet. so i let her see lor.. she gave me dis strange look den returned it to mi.. hmm... i wonder what she meant by tt look...
anw, 2dae was great! i had loadsa fun! yayx! hahax...
-p.s. 1e, yjm, karin, wadeva(pronounced as wa-di-va)! lolx.-

::Yayx?::
ok, lets try to sound as hapi as possible...
yayx... crez dance got into de finals! woo...
o come on, im tryin my best liao kayz... i min im reali reali hapi crez dance got into de finals & all, but im juz... depressed? i duno... anw, congrats to all dance seniors... rock on yeah...

::Haiz::
haiz... i reali dunno wat im feelin rite now... i feel lyk runnin away to somewhere i can be alone... where i can cry my heart out...
i reali cannot take it anymore... i reali dun noe if i pull thru dis yr... much less nxt yr... haiz...
i have so mani things ive tried to hide for too long... i noe its abt tym i actually let it all out... haiz...
no one knows im crying... no one knows & no one cares...
tts exactly how i feel rite now... i reali reali wish some1 was here to comfort me... i wish we were stil in pri 6... i wish me & my fwenz were as close as we were laz tym...
i noe my fwenz r always dere 4 me, now & forever... but... we are driftin apart no matter how hard we try... i gas its normal... & i gas its just a way of life... haiz... but i reali dun noe... i reali miss my fwenz... now, more then ever....
they've reali made a difference in my life... dey've changed da way i looked at life... im reali thkful 4 everyth dey've done 4 me.
thk u all my fwenz... reali thk u...

::Ermz::
ok, so here's da th abt my dad. everytym my mum goes overseas alone, my dad gets lyk way over protective.
wait, let me make it clearer, he gets way over protective over ME. srsly...
he tinks im alr 13 (ermz...), but he treats me as if im lyk 10 or sth. & dis is de onli tym he does tt. it gets freakinly weird ok. he's lyk all "u tink u v mature alr izit? u tink u can take care of urself arh? see so careless!" tt was when i almost choked on water cuz of wat he said.
ermz... yar... i dun reali lyk it lar. i min im not 13 yet, but im alr in sec 1. & i'l alr be 13 in aug. u carn kp treatin me lyk a lil' pri skool kid rite?
but its reali weird... cuz he onli do does it when my mum is overseas. da rez of da days he's at work & im in skool. so i (most of da tym) eat dinner wit my whole fam. den im lyk hi daddy, & he starts playin wit roxy. den l8r he'll ask mi how was skool & i'l sae "fine". den i go into my rm to do my work aft ive finish eatin. da nex mornin ive alr gone to skool b4 he've had his breakfast.
so its lyk a routine every weekdae. den all of a sudden, comes da hols & he's all protective over me. its reali freaky...
anw...
i duno... im feelin reali depressed now... i duno wats goin on in my life... i stil got tt feelin tt im lyk im v xtra in 1g2... its alr been a term... i thot i juz needed to get used to da new skool, new ppl & all... but its alr been a term... 1 whole term... haiz... i miss ijbt... i miss 6peace05 now more then ever...
haiz... i dun wanna cont typin anymore... im afraid i'l cry... so i'll stop here...

::???::
2dae we changed speech & drama teacher! yayx. da prev one totally sucks. dis one is soooo much beta den her. wanted to go orchad 2dae but didn go in de end. (sry u guys, hope u had fun yeah.)
lotsa stuff happened 2dae, but im too lazy to type it out... so won't bother...
tmrw our skool havin softbal match wit nan hua... shucks, i wanna go... but so sad i carn... anw, i support both skools! so crescent & nan hua yao jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wil support u ALL DA WAE! (haha, stil rmb tt th which kept playin durin cs lesson... so furni... hahax...) i dun reali care which skool wins... but i wish i cud be dere...
anw, u guys muz all do ur best hor! haha... & da dance seniors ye shi! yao jia you! hope ya'll wil win! haha! & have fun while u're dere! yao mai li wu gei wo men hor! lolx...
nth to sae le... nex tym den post....
-p.s. unice, get it rite, its CRESCENT... lolx...-

::Lalilalalas::
urgh, stupid connection thgy... i juz typed out dis lyk super long post & den posted it but da connection got prob and da whole th POOFED! hmphs... now i shal try to rmb as much as possible wat i wrote...
todae... hmmm... we had no mass run! yay! hahax... we got back our maths & hist paper! & u wanna noe wat?? i passed! i actually passed!!! lyk yayx me! (shucks, i srsly gotta get over myself. lolx...) i reali didn expect to pass my hist paper. i min my 1st reaction when i read da 1st qn was "HUH? WAT DA HECK IS THIS TALKIN ABT??" when everyone had alr started writin. hahax... & i made dis lyk reali stupid careless mistake. i reali gotta rmb dis --> royal yellow umbrella ->SEA<- , NOT indus valley civillisation. yeah, tt was da stupid careless mistake i made... or not cud have gotten 2 more marks... my maths was ok. juz tt i srsly carn diferenciate bwt rational & irrational nums. lyk wat da heck, im juz glad its over.
-we have yet to get back our sci test, lit test, eng compre & compo. i want my compo & sci test, da rez, da teachers can keep it safely on deir desk to collect dust. hahax..-
i was reali reali hapi cuz i did lyk quite well 4 both papers... but... b4 sci lesson, i had dis lyk major mood swing. so da rez of da sci lesson was toturin... lyk reali toturin... i was reali in a bad mood & cudn reali concentrate. aft a while got back to my usual-crazy-idiotic self. yay... hahax...
me, cjm, tpl, sherlyn, regina, jou teng & sum other ppl i 4got... went to mobil to eat lunch... den sherlyn wanted to get cup noodles but da rez of us were lyk "NO sherlyn stop! l8r muz report to mr s*mad! haha." long story abt da cup noodle th, dun ask. hahax...
we had pbl aft tt. i stil dun get da point in havin pbl. i min is dis da onli way dey can find to torture helpless lil' kids lyk us? its not lyk we dun alr have enuff projects to do... & all dey do every pbl session is crap. haiz...
went straight to dance prac aft pbl. was reali tired & moody. i stil prefer monday's prac. modern dance! woohoo! heh... i was practicaly struggling to kp awake & tryin rmb all da steps. we had water breaks in bwt, lyk abt 5 to 10 mins. i was lyk drink alr slp. cudn help it, 2 tired... i dun tink i got enuff shut eye yest. anw, i was sittin on da stairs of da stage. den woke up, cuz v noisy, tried to walk dwn da stairs... but was v giddy... i almost fell bckwards... onto a senior... hax...
hmmm... tmrw stil got speech & drama claz... haiz... sucks... i heard dey were gonna change da teacher... yayx... hahax... dun have to see her stupid face no more. haha.. she was lyk "u shldn be talkin when ur teacher frm new york is talkin!" & we were lyk"wat da? new york jiu liao bu qi ah?-roll eyes, curse her, all tt stuff-" watever, speech & drama stil sucks.
-FYI to all 6peace05 ppl, b4 u start faintin aft u read tt i have speech & drama clazzes, its compulsary 4 all sec 1's. wat did u tink? i winllingly joined??? now tts crazy, plain crazy.-
ok, so now i noe y miss l*m wanna change our pri skool name, bla bla bla & all tt stuff. but i dun see wats wrong wit da name ijbt. see IJBT, such a nice name. i min dere's alr chij oln, chij our lady of gd council... if u change it to our lady of sth.... its lyk so un-original. i dun care, watever happens, ijbt & 6peace 05 stil rawks my world.
yayx... tmrw is da laz dae b4 march hols. so hapi, dun havta see her face 4 1 week! 1 WHOLE WEEK! yay... haha...
& o ya, thk u 1e, jazlyn & cjm 4 helpin mi de other dae! u guys rock! thx u guys! rock on!
kay, i gtg research on da war th... shucks... im too lazy... haiz...

::Busted::
u r SO busted girl, & u dun even noe it. thx cjm, i reali appreciated wat u did 4 mi. thx, thx alot.
i carn believe it... its onli been less den a yr since grad, & u can change to a completely diff person.
& o yes, i aint sad cjm. i knew it lyk long long tym ago. it was juz fun seein u guys... erm... expressions? no lahs. i gas i juz wanted to be sure. i din wanna lyk accuse da wrong person... esp cuz it was her...
so... if u stil duno abt it... i suggest... u stop? i min it wasnt a v nice th to do. u cud have juz... urgh... i min it was lyk way mean of u to do it lars... & i reali din expect u to do it...
i juz wanna make dis clear, im not sad, im juz... angry... angry cuz u did it.... to mi...